The final goodbye......

Forgive me..... for i have to let you go,
Not because i've stopped loving you...
But because there is a horizon that beckons me....
and i have to tread that path alone.
Having you by my side will hold me back,
for i would not have the courage to see "us" fall apart...
I have held your hand in every trying moment, when i felt i could not go on alone,
I have cried on your shoulder everytime i have failed...
But from here its just me....
You will be in my morning prayer,
You will be in each passing thought ..
I will cherish the way i saw you last....
The last smile.... the last hug.... the final goodbye.....!

We might meet again at another crossroad, you will accuse of an abrupt exit,
I would just stand looking,
the tears wouldn't listen to me, they'd keep rolling...
The feet won't move for it would seem like a dream.....
Its a dream i will keep living until we meet again.....!!!

The Dancing waves

Your imagination takes an incredible flight when there's boundaryless ocean , with sand glistening under the moonlight surrounding you..... The sound of waves hitting the the shore is music to the ears, the reflection of the moon in the gushing water is like a thousand beautiful courtesans dancing to celebrate life, to celebrate the very fact of our existance and to celebrate our presence there. You fall in love with nature in its purest form and such a magical set up makes you think of things, that you wouldn't otherwise. Things like falling in love with a complete stranger or the thought that all of us have soul mates and after all these dreary years you've found yours.... or even that India and Pakistan will soon have mutual love blossoming between them.

Only if the sun wouldn't rise again and the stranger you are with believes in unicorns and fairies and soul mates, life would be perfect................

An ode to a fulfilling life......

Sometimes during the course of ur life u meet people, who change the light in which u c most things..., or bring out a side to u that u never thought existed. Of course meeting these people is pre determined for ur growth in the desired direction, but still despite this knowledge, everytime u experience such an occurance, it never ceases to surprise. Only a deep level of introspection makes u realise the profound effect that the experience has had on u.
Whether it was during spending a perfect day with my favourite man, or sitting through the night talking to my best friend or being admonished for shedding tears for a lost love . Or justifying the vices that i've given in to or spening hours talkin bout higher spiritual existance , each of thees people have become part of me, an inseparable part....... They live in me in their own special ways guiding me through the ups and downs of life.......

For him

His smile nd his eyes make me go weak in the knees.
When he holds me its like coming home.
Nothing else seems to matter wen m with him.
The entire world shrinks into nothingness.
The only thing that matters is that m with him nd i know if anything happens right now , he'll protect me.
I don't know wat tomorrow has for me, but that doesn't stop me from wanting to be with him today.
I may not have him for life, but i know that i'll love him for life............

leaving behind the memories

Its time to leave yet again, leaving behind another set of friends to carve my own niche. Apprehensions are ruling the thought process yet again.
People say, there's no love in this world. But today when my life's so full of love, its hard to imagine.
I think its time to take off my rose tinted glasses nd smell the coffee.
The only thing that remains with me is myself.
People come nd go. They touch my life in their own special way nd move on.
I too move ahead nd take with me not jus the memories but the realization of my own self, the capabilities nd the weaknesses.
There are no tears in the eyes, but there's a feeling i can't explain.
The hurt of leaving the life here nd the excitement for wat lies ahead.
Change is the hardest thing to cope up with, but i know i'll survive cause i've been there before. Felt the same things. The difference is just that i know myself nd i know i'll survive......

The past never leaves u, its perception just distorts itself as u mature.....

When the dawn settles itself across the city, all i can hear are the voices, some familiar, others not so much, voices calling out to me, voices of friends admonishing my silly notions, voices whispering sweet nothings into my ears and the voices that tell me, no matter how far away i am...... I am never alone.....

The voice then give way to the flashback of my life at breakneck speed, by the end of which m left gasping for breath, tryin to differentiate dream from reality. Disillusion engulfs me for about ten minutes & then reality settles and m left smiling to myself, cause the reality is beautiful, its everything i ever wanted, but my past still haunts me, the tears the smiles , the uncontrollable laughs, the irreplaceable love & the innumerable broken promises.......

The End or a Beginning

It feels like an end, but seems like a beginning as well
Tears rolled down when i took in the last few breaths in the city i'd never be able to call home again, when i waved a final good-bye to the people who meant the world to me.
As the train pulled away from the station, i could feel a tug at the bottom of my stomach, not knowing, whether this was an end or jus another beginning yet again......
Today, i still feel the tug but the pain seems to have faded into numbness, yeterday seems like an illusion, a mirage of what i wanted to see..... today is a reality i cannot ignore cause my tomorrow rests on it..... They say that the only thing constant in life is change, then y is it that this very change leaves behind a void an emptiness that fails to leave us... All seems to have come to a halt but still am waiting for the beginning that seems to be takin eternity to reach the crevices of my life.........